interesting death

interesting death

Death is a big subject to me. I feel my tummy crinche and my heart sink everytime I hear news of it, see its ghastly pictures and its reign of terror mercilessly spread through my mind. I fear death, for I celebrate living. I hate its suddeness, almost rarely people see it coming and get prepared, I hate not being able to get prepared for what is ahead. It almost feels unfair that people should face it without much notice. Whatever feelings it up stirrs, death is still a certainty on this earth and the best preparation one would ever be able to make is to accept it and rise above it by the everlasting hope we have in our God who bridges to us through His love. Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness inthe day of judgment; because as He is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. I think my main cause to have this fear is fearing that I may not be what God takes pleasure for me to be. It is a fear of failure. It is a fear of a perfectionist that things will not turn out to be in a certain expected way. I fear that I might not stand in faith. I fear that I might be called to leave before what needs to get done gets done. I fear having regrets in heaven. I have not been made perfect in love and I am glad that I realise God has alot to work in me. This tells me that when I leave, I am not getting to leave being abandoned. The same hands that brought me to this world will be the same hands that will lead me, reach out for me and bring me into eternity. Perfect love pushes out the chills of fear because it warms my heart and faith grows when God is around. God is around and within my heart. There is no room for fear and there is no need to fear. It is that simple.

I am grateful for Walter Ciszek that through his thoughts I can link mine and had found ground to rest. Why not take a read? http://www.bruderhof.com/articles/FearNot.htm