Another milestone for the year...

Another milestone for the year….

I am quaintly satisfied with myself being apart of the 20th church anniversary, reason being that I find I had contributed something from the preparation till the end which was essential and non replaceable. Maybe being involved in it gives me a sense of feeling important (thank God it did not inflate me!) and having a part in making it an enjoyable event brought some feeling of being positively useful in impact. Received many congratulatory statements and encouragement on my singing which made my happy. Hard work does pay off. I still recall feeling frenzy and nervous the day before, stumbling through and keep forgetting the sequence during practices. I had by far worked myself through the most number of practices for an event and I am glad I did this as a personal commitment. For the first time I had all the songs and the flow in my head without relying on paper and most thrillingly, went deep in devotion even it was a public event. It was magical for me. Never regret pushing through.

There were some struggles the night before the event. I had trouble sleeping and was a little worried whether I would be able to recall the songs and the direction I wanted to go. Had a faint nostalgic feeling of how I used to feel before presentations last time. Besides, there were merry makers joining my neighbour opposite me excited over their all-night mahjong marathon. Didn’t like missing sleep and the crackling mahjong pieces but I knew this need to be dealt with, so I did what would be best – pray and intercede. Apparently, that was what the opportunity had to offer – time with God for petitioning and awaiting breakthroughs. It was an opportunity not to be missed because it first allowed me to deal with my inner struggles. I petitioned my need for the Lord and for breakthrough as encouraged in Philippians “be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” I had the peace of God anchoring me the moment I let out my anxiety and frustrations and started to trust Him, lean on Him. It’s like a release and refill with no gaps between it kind of thing you know. Not only did God gave me rest internally, the Hoy Spirit began to stir me to intercede for the next day. It was such a victorious moment. By then my prayers became confident, assured, giving and faithful; I didn’t mind if I had to pray until day breaks. Isn’t it wonderful when confusion seeks to set foot and distraction seeks to enshroud, simple yielding to the Lord brings deliverance and a weapon to gain ground? Satan sought to wear me down but God turned it all around. I was all charged up and prepared for the morning, even caught some good sleep, had some morning inspirations and energy to last till I reached home.

Another thanks giving occasion would be having all these people around you who are responsible for what they are doing, serious in what they do, and willing to do it. I don’t think there would be any more potent a group than with such attitude. People, they get up early before the sun hits the roof and were on their way to the venue to set up. Most of them did not come with breakfast. Then, they stayed behind after the event to pack up and transport stuff back to church. I am sure God has their reward at hand.